Sunday, March 27, 2011

John 8:32

John 8:32: "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."

In my current bible study we are Breaking Free. It occurs to me how often what we think is true of our lives often is not. In my own life I have held on to this “truth” for so long that it has seemed the chains of bondage this “truth” has bound me with would hold me forever. I have believed that God couldn’t possibly “really” forgive me because I couldn’t forgive myself. It doesn’t even have to be anything major any old sin will do.

I think a lot of times we are harder on ourselves than we would be on other people. If one of my children do something, I forgive them. I assure them that there is NOTHING that they could do that would ever change that. They can NEVER make me stop loving them, ever. Even as I type these words I can hear the soft whisper of “then why would you not think the same of me?” It’s true of course. As a child I had many difficult times. My mother did the best she could but she married a man who didn’t like kids, my own dad mostly just came around on birthdays and holidays. I didn’t grow up in the church with my family. I always tagged along with friends. There was a bus that would come through my neighborhood and pick up the kids to take them to church. Come Sunday morning I would be on the church bus, and I would come home singing. When I was eight years old I gave my life to Christ and was baptized in the church. No one in my family was there to witness it. So I guess to say that I never expected much from my parents in the way of forgiveness or support would be an understatement. My mother was the queen of the silent treatment. Eventually I would have to talk so much she couldn’t take it anymore and she would break down and talk to me.

In looking back, I guess I expected God to be the same way. Why would my Heavenly Father be any different than my earthly parents? Because He is. Getting that through my thick stubborn head has been tough. Currently in my One Year Bible, I’m reading about the Israelites and all the complaining and sinning they did against God AFTER He had rescued them from the Egyptians. I keep getting so frustrated with them. Honestly I get mad and think to myself “Really? What is wrong with you people?” Then I pull the plank out of my own eye and think “What is wrong with ME?” How thick must I be that I can’t get that God has forgiven me every time I have asked. It’s a done deal. Stop listening to your own lies, stop listening to Satan’s lies and accept the truth. God’s truth is the only one that is real and God’s love is what matters.

John 8:32: "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."  It’s so simple really, yet was so hard to accept. I get it now. I’m so glad to know His truth is different from what I imagine mine to be. As far as Breaking Free goes… I’m feeling lighter and freer all the time.

Dear God, Thank you that your truth is different than my own. Thank you for your love and for your patience. For You are not me and Your thinking isn’t like mine. You are steadfast in your love. You delight in your children, just as I delight in the children you have blessed me with for this time. You are Holy and we are blessed. Thank you Lord.

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