"What do you want to happen?"
This was the question posed to me by my pastor at the end of a day of unexpected test results and the possibility of an uncertain future. To be honest, I hadn't even thought about what I wanted. I was still too wrapped up in the "why me" and "why now" of the situation. After thinking about it, I answered him honestly. "I want it to go away, and I don't want to have to deal with needles."
Earlier that day a trip to the radiologist that was supposed to confirm that the lump in my breast was just a cyst turned out to be news that I had an abscess. That part was not concerning; antibiotics and an aspiration would solve that with little difficulty. The real problem was a thickness that encased the abscess. It needed biopsied, the sooner the better.
I went home, completely absorbed in the "why me" and "why now" part of this news. My husband started working his phone, and later that evening we headed to our friends' house for an impromptu prayer meeting. It was during this time that the exchange with my pastor took place. He took my answer, and that's how we prayed - for the mass to go away, and that there be no needles.
Matthew 7:7 tells us to ask, seek and knock with the results being receiving, finding and doors opening, respectively. In doing so, we have the opportunity to exercise our faith. Where it get sticky sometimes is when the answer, opportunity, or door isn't the one we thought was right for us. In those times we hold to the truth that God works all things for our good.
Three days after our prayer meeting, I went to have the biopsy done and found out that mass had reduced to less than one-third of its original size and that the thickness was gone, therefore no biopsy was needed. It was just as we had prayed...the mass was gone, and no needles were required.