Wednesday, August 15, 2012

The Torture of Waiting

I am one of the worst people at waiting.  I count the days until an event that I am looking forward to (and keep this tab in my head of how many days are left…6 days until school…just so you know).  I get aggravated easily when I am waiting on my kids, my husband, or for someone to make a plan for work that needs to be done.  I find that most of the time I just take over and do whatever needs to be done myself.

But I am WORST about waiting on God.  Not being able to count the days or look forward to exactly when something is going to happen is TORTURE.  I read this quote today and it really seemed to resonate with me…“We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.”  Joseph Campbell.

Right now I feel like I am in transition in my life…and it is driving me CRAZY.  See, God has called us to move to Youngstown, OH.  I have quit my job here, we are planning on putting our house on the market (after we do some work on it), I have applied and completed 2 interviews at a position in Youngstown…everything was working so fast and exactly perfect…and then it felt like everything screeched to a halt.

It has been over two weeks since the second interview and still no word.  We have looked at houses and found one that we want to put an offer on, but without a job we can’t really put an offer on the house.  Our house here is not coming together as fast as we had hoped and it seems like it will NEVER be ready to go to market.

And here I am…..WAITING!!!

Waiting for things to start moving again, waiting for the doors to open that are supposed to be, waiting for the house to sell, the offer to be accepted, the job to be offered…all so we can get to where God has called us to be.

I try and push things…I called the job and all I ever get is voicemail.  Nothing seems to work.

So, I try to find peace with waiting.  And I try and follow this quote I found…

“Waiting on God requires the willingness to bear uncertainty, to carry within oneself the unanswered question, lifting the heart to God about it whenever it intrudes upon one's thoughts.” Elisabeth Elliot

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